Title from: Overdose - SG Lewis (with Honne) [Spotify | Youtube]
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I used to write about you when I was drunk.
In my defense, regardless of how weird it sounds, it was the only time I could convey how I felt without my pride taking over. I could talk about you for hours — but not in front of you, definitely not when I was in complete control of myself, hence slipping under influence was my best bet to pour what I thought in the purest, most honest way.
I could only write about you when I was drunk.
No—it's not because I wouldn't think about you otherwise; it's how fully conscious me would write something so carefully, with many judgements and considerations, producing a shitty piece I would never let anyone to read when it came to describing you. I would be so cautious about my words that I would edit, and edit, and edit, till it sat on my drafts for years, not wanting for the world to see.
With the absence of things that I wrote about you and for you, so was the booze streaming down my bloodstream — and yet the second I had the sip tonight and the alcohol kicked in, writing about you was the only thing I could think of.
Just like many things,
You, too, amongst other details that only we know.